Happy, For You Made Me.

the time factor

2010-04-05T19:27:00.003+02:00

You say its supposed to get better with time, that each time, the shitty feeling at the pit of this tummy will be lesser. You prolly lied just to make me feel better, right?

I feel it just gets worse, see, today I even cried at the departure gates when you left.

I hate airport goodbyes.

I miss you already, and its not even a day you're gone.

Shucks.

2009-10-10T19:11:00.002+02:00

Am going to miss the weekly wednesday-to-Hubz-and-Sunday-back-home commutes. After this weekend,

its just going to be the monthly weekend commute.

3 more nights to the next few months of single days and lonely nights.

:((

don't like.

Whatttttttttttt? Its early October already?????????

2009-10-05T20:06:00.002+02:00

So the month of Syawal passed me by in a blur. We weren't really bogged down by much activities, and the school timetable has slowed down towards the end of the year... But still, I don't remember where the time went.
Maybe its the weekly commutes to and fro Hub's. In the course of 3 weeks, I've stamped my passport like 8 times going in and out of Singapore-Indo.
FIL is slowly regaining some cognitive functions. We are just worried that his speech and mouth control is kinda slow in recovering. Apart from that, his daily improvements reminds me of a newborn's milestones - each day brings us something new. Thankful, we are.
Still can't believe its been more than 3 weeks Hubz has been back (which then reminds me that he is due off soon, something which I'd rather not think about but well.....) and....... its been months since I had some time to myself in the midst of everything thus far. Not that I'm complaining, of course :)

So... Its 2 more weeks to our 1st anniversary - whattttttt so quickkkkkkkkk??
I'm hoping for a meaningful present. Hoping, and wishing :)
Lookin' forward to thursday again, passport-stamping time.

The Week of October 5th

2009-10-05T20:04:00.000+02:00

Sagittarius
11/22 – 12/21

Early in the week, if you say you're going to do something, be sure to stick to it -- and if you really can't, let them know instead of flaking (tell them as far in advance as possible!). Even little commitments are important ones. Around Wednesday and Thursday, even little conversations are full of meaning -- both the silences and the words. Deploy a warm smile at the right moment, and see the magical effect! And while ups and downs may be occurring over the next couple of days, Sunday looks lovely. Plan an adventure -- the more outdoors, the better!

its the thought that counts (this is obviously an excuse)

2009-09-28T19:10:00.002+02:00

Spent the last few nights of Ramadhan, and the first few days of Eid @ Hubz parents' village, a real eye-opener, in a good way I s'pose. Missed the parents on the last evening of buka... the takbir raya from the surrounding mosques which went on throughout the night made me even more homesick than I thought I would be.
BUT... Hubz being around made up for everything else, and I am sure MIL and the rest of his family members were much more than relieved at having him home at this point of time.
Thankful, I so am that he got back.
Thank you, thank you, thank you.

Sooooooo. The throngs of guests and well-wishers that came by to the in-laws house on the 1st day of Eid had me sneezing and gasping for air (okay, so maybe it was an asthma attack from the millions of smoke particles coming out of the gazillion cigarrettes that the Indonesian men seem to have on their lips at every other second of the day).... but it was amazing seeing almost the whole village all turn up at one place in one day. not so amazing was trying to remember who was whom and where or how the relation was, and ending up incorrectly addressing many of the guests. and then there were the sets and sets of kids in brightly-coloured baju kurongs, who came and went and came and went, and I had no idea which ones came first or which ones already got the customary green packets cos I couldn't figure out who was who in the first place. LOL
oh well, there's a first time to everything, right?

The main difference though, was that Eid celebrations in the village kinda dies off after the initial couple of days... and life goes back to normal quickly. Here in Singapore though, Eid celebrations goes on way past the 2nd week, giving us more reasons to pack on the pounds eating kuihs every day, heh.

So anyway, here's to the next week of celebrations here :) and yes, my sincerest apologies for a very belated EID MUBARAK from me...Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir Batin!

XOXO

L11, in S&D.

2009-09-16T17:24:00.002+02:00

On the topic of 'Fire'.

Teacher L: Soooooooo class... what do we know about fire?
Meg: Its red in colour!
JW: No, no... my fire that Mummy cook at home is blue!!
(Teacher L raises eyebrow and corrects JW's phrasing)
Teacher L: But, both Meg and JW are right... The big fires are normally red, or orange in colour. But the fire we always see on the cooking stove, is normally blue, right Class? (Class nods enthusiastically) So.... what else can you tell me about fire?
Rowan: I know....Australia always got fire... I see on TV!
Teacher L : Very good Rowan, those are called forest or bush fires... It usually happens during the hot season, which is called Summer.... (Gets interrupted)
Jovan: My mummy say when we die we will go into the fire... so in the Australia people only die when the season is Summer ah Teacher?
Teacher L: (brain cells quickly rush into action thinking of a appropriately-worded explanation for the K1s)

Just another S& D day.
:O

All that we owe

2009-09-16T17:04:00.002+02:00

In another lying-on-the-bed-doing-nothing episode, I realised.

When Ramadhan started, I griped incessantly about being without the husband on our first Eid as husband and wife. I griped to myself, to Mummy, to my friends, on here, and even on FB! Looking back, I must have sound like a broken record. My bad.

In a very lucky twist of circumstances (or, I shall consider this our silver lining in our clouds), something which was totally unplanned for, Hubby got home nearly a week ago and we will spend Eid with his family first, and then mine, at a later date. The most important thing though - that Hubz is back. However, In the midst of all the recent activities, I've forgotten to be thankful for that opportunity to have Hubz home during this festive period.

Its not so funny, realising it took me zilch second to gripe and groan... but it was so convenient to forget a heartfelt thanks. Again, my bad.

Thank you, God, from the bottom of this heart.
For making your presence felt, and known.

A Love Letter for you, my birthday Man.

2009-09-14T17:39:00.003+02:00

A world apart, we were.

From my vocality, to your silence.

My city-upbringing to your more conservative village set-up.

My open-ness to many things, to your strong hesitance of anything new.

My jumping into situations, to your careful planning.

My clumsiness, to your carefulness.

My utter and constant disorganization, to your meticulous notes and reminders.

My women's rights, to your man-ly ego.

My temper, to your calm.

My indecisiveness, to your clear head.

This head on my shoulders that is, more often than not, run by my brain,

to yours, wholely run by that soft heart.

We must've been as different as day and night!

I've always wondered which of the above made me say yes, but it doesn't

really matter, I'm just glad I did - for you made a good woman out of me, and for

that I am thankful.

Thank you, for so many things.

For staying put.

For that hand in mine.

For the faith.

For that chance.

For trying.

For believing, when I didn't.

For the beautific house, and many other conveniences which you always see to.

For instilling in me, so many valuable lessons which I'd overseen.

For all the silly things that you do, like changing the time on the wallclock, just so I

will get up earlier than I thought I was - that really cracked me up.

For letting me have the bedlight on at night, eventhough you find it hard to sleep.

For putting up with my morning sinus... and snorts.

For making decisions which I'd find troublesome to make.

For volunteering to cook every single dinner when you're back.

For the light you've shone.

For your unnerving patience.

And thank you, for asking.

Happy Birthday, Hubz.

I love you...

for all that you are, and all that you've made us.

Now. How old are you again?????????

*wink*

The Week of September 14th

2009-09-14T17:36:00.001+02:00

Sagittarius
11/22 – 12/21

If you could bottle and sell the good cheer that surrounds you on Monday and Tuesday, you'd be a millionaire. But you're hardly thinking about ways to make more money, what with all the free things people are giving you. Perhaps you even get a bonus! Wednesday and Thursday, an authority figure is a thorn in your side, but Friday is so bright that you're scarcely able to recall what was bugging you just a day earlier. The weekend continues in this vein -- bright, happy and full of people who admire you. Whatever you need to do, you'll have the time.
Additional Sagittarius Forecasts

If...

2009-09-11T19:15:00.003+02:00

we can just have some time together, is that too difficult to ask?

hating my school schedule, school is making it very difficult to be with Hubz.

The week in a flurry

2009-09-10T21:56:00.002+02:00

The weeks is madly passing by... I don't know how Friday came about already!

Anyway, Hubz is back ;) suffice enough to plaster a genuine smile on this otherwise miserable face. However, am hating the fact that our schedules (or mine, mostly) doesn't allow me to spend more time with him, cos I have to be constantly be here for classes and project datelines and whatnots! grrrr. Also hating the fact that he has been very troubled by circumstances... and I am nowhere around him as I should be!

And ooohhhh... My first Raya @ his kampung, I can't wait! I wonder how that feels like. I doubt it will be a busy affair, what with the FIL's medical condition, but hey, its still my first time @ a kampung! (Mummy says I'm jakun, but what does she know - she'd experienced the life when she was younger, we didn't!) WIll be missing the first day in Sg though, I don't know how I'd feel about that.

This weekend, visiting the FIL till Sunday evening. Next week, the madness of time-travel continues with school on most days, and trying to spring-clean the house, helping Mummy with her need-to-do housechores list whilst trying not to get enticed by the different type of kuihs in the kitchen. Oh, that will be a challenge!

And no, Geylang is not on the list. Never again.

Tingles

2009-09-07T18:42:00.002+02:00

all over.

time does not really heal.
what time actually does is push it as far away as possible, to the corners of the mind, to where darkness does not make you lose your way, to where the distance = peace.

presence is what shakes it all up. again.

and the time-tested trying cycle continues.

S & D

2009-09-07T17:56:00.002+02:00

Today, in S& D... On the topic of hands and fingers.

Teacher L: Sooooooo, who can tell me what we call this finger? (shows the last)

Avryl: (much too confidently raising up her hand) Teacher, I know! purpliieeeeeeeee

Teck Siong: Teacher L, not pinky, meh?

Teacher L tries her very best not to burst out laughing to 11 pairs of very confused eyes.

The Week of September 7th

2009-09-07T17:50:00.001+02:00

Sagittarius
11/22 – 12/21

Do your best to be down-to-earth at the beginning of this week: take care of responsibilities, analyze practicalities, administer reality checks. Dullsville, right? You'll be awfully glad you did around Wednesday, Thursday and Friday, when life's crazy-busy. The groundwork you lay now lets you pay attention to the areas and interactions that need it later. Then, from later on Friday through the weekend, you can engage with your world on a philosophical level, getting deep and exercising those ideals. Enjoy!

to Jb, with a different purpose.

2009-08-31T07:47:00.003+02:00

2 ambulances to and fro, 1 see-through nurse, a ferry trip, a stretcher, a constant drip, lots of phone calls to and fro, and many many pairs of red eyes.

FIL is getting transferred from the local hospital to a specialised one in Jb after the stroke he had on Sunday rendered him immobile, and semi-paralysed.

Pray this move goes well, insyaalah. Will be staying @ the jb hideaway for the next few days.
News soon.

The Week of August 31st

2009-08-31T07:46:00.000+02:00

Sagittarius
11/22 – 12/21

You're even more of a quick study than usual as the week gets started, since you're able to pick up new concepts with alacrity -- and you pick up on interpersonal elements, too. A chance connection now could spark amazing stuff! Around Wednesday, your energy's low-key, though those around you will find you a receptive, engaged listener. Bounce ideas and feelings back with insightful questions. Life's a pleasure for anyone around you from Thursday through Saturday -- with love and leisure highlighted for you, too. Hot! Practice moderation on Sunday, and get grounded for a new week.

just a drop of you, to make me feel better.

2009-08-29T19:50:00.000+02:00

not thinking

2009-08-28T05:55:00.001+02:00

not feeling.

not depending.

not hoping.

not even.

i don't like it this way.

of inner-thoughts.

2009-08-25T19:38:00.004+02:00

something just doesn't feel right, but I don't really want to harp on it at the mo. i think its best to just wait and see... i wonder how i will ever get these demons out of my thoughts once and for all. i try to chase them away, but they come back time and time again. maybe, its just cause i'm female :)

today, i learnt that you can be confident but still inhibited.
i think, I am one of those people who falls into this category, which is a surprise even for me.
i need to lose some of this inhibition, and only then will i be at ease with the whole me.
so, how do i start?

another matter altogether, this evening, I finally met someone who had the same body make-up as me, i.e top heavy-flat bottom (or, Hubz would say.. WHAT bottom??). and not only does she carry it off more than well, she didnt look like it bothered her!
so yes, if in 5 years time my body will come to look more like hers, I really don't mind now. heh.

opening shift again tmr. and back to school on Thursday, YEAY! i've been missing the ladies in class so bad.

random mulling, always.
g'nite.

loon.ggg day

2009-08-24T16:20:00.002+02:00

today, up early. this prickbrain just haaaaaaaaaaad to forget that she had an assignment submission today, and she conveniently scheduled herself for morning duty @ the Centre.

Sooooooooooooooo. Out of the house @ 0600. Along the way, picked up SIL and sent her to school (dont know how she does the morning routine everyday, if I had to do it, I will hand in my resignation within 3 days...or less! but that's just me. Other people have discipline. I d.o.n.t). heh.
Morning traffic was great though, smooth journey all the way to Bras Basah. The security guard looked at me (prolly thinking why the heck is this lady here at the door, its not even 7am yet and school normally starts at 9!) so I had to explain the whole sheeshkabang. Slipped the assignment under the office entrance, hoping Sue-Ann finds it. Then the rush to get back to the centre for my 0730 start.
Of course, Ajeeb just had to fall asleep (which, of course, being the sister of gazillion years, i'd already expected). Reached the Centre @ 0729. just in time for a minute of breather! heh.

Ronaldo is finally back after 5 days of hospital food (no thanks to a bout of high fever), he looked sooooo thin and was still frail, he was barely himself today, even the Aunties could see that.

Thankfully, my first day of fasting went by pretty well... no thirst or hunger pangs... until about 1840... when its half hour more to buka, and Mom's nasi lemak awakened all senses. Today, we had +Ajeeb +Cik Noor +Reza with us during buka so it was nice :)

About 8pm, out the house again.... to the airport to see Zamir off and to get Hubz stuff to him. I swear and double swear, I miss going away... I miss the queues, I miss the asking for window seats, I miss the baggage drop. EVERYTHING. urgh.

Anyhoo.... Popeye's takeaway for Reza's sahur and here we are back on the lappie being distracted from yet another assignment due next week.

So there. One of the longest days I had ever. 0430 get up, to now. Some sleep is in order!

:)

The Week of August 24th

2009-08-24T16:16:00.001+02:00

Sagittarius
11/22 – 12/21

The more you try to deny something, the more it will interfere with your life. Use the first three days of the week to explore some part of yourself that doesn't jibe with your public image. When you're able to accept all parts of yourself, you free up more energy to live the life you deserve. Thursday and Friday are about making that belief a reality. Sometimes you have to take the action before you get the insight. Listen to your intuition and don't worry so much about how it looks -- think about how it feels. Over the weekend, recent limitations start to look more like gifts than obstacles.

the start of Ramadhan

2009-08-21T16:54:00.002+02:00

The Prophet Muhammad (SAW) said, “What a loss it would be for one to witness Ramadan and not

gain from it forgiveness”.

Such a waste I'm having to miss the first day or terawih, and fasting, no thanks to Ms.P! Hopefully I

get to start on the 2nd day, insyaalah.... Wanting to experience my maiden terawih experience, and

hopefully many more to come after.

So looking forward to my first Ramadhan as a wife.. BUT Hubz won't be around!

The irony of it all, tsk.

To all my Muslim friends, Have a good 1st day of Puasa people... not many days now till Raya!!!!

Another night, another wait.

2009-08-21T07:13:00.002+02:00

So yesterday night instead of waiting, I got into bed early. And as much as I tried to close my eyes, its like they won't budge. Maybe, they have been so used to waiting up past the midnight hours that getting them to close early is not the norm! Oh, well.

It scares me, that sometimes I don't feel anything when I fall asleep without getting to speak to Hubz. Due to the time difference, some days when he works late - of course I wait for his call... but at some point along the line, I just go to bed. I'd get disappointed, but it'd be over in a sec!
Even he is sometimes amazed at my ability NOT to be angry, or just a tad concerned...... when he thinks I should be. But the problem is, I never know if I should be!
I don't know if thats normal, and I have no friends who go through the same marriage life as mine to compare my case with, so I can't really say.

And its not just the calls.... I've been having to be really independent all these while, and I'm not really sure if that's healthy in a relationship. I mean, where is the line drawn then, when most of the time I am with and by myself for up to 4 months, and am able to more that sufficiently function without the male presence of the husband? Apart from the occasional day or 2 of emotional-hormonal disturbances where my strength fails me.... BUT the rest of the time, I do more than just fine, which can be good, or bad.... depending on how we look at it?

I know these thoughts are silly, but hey, its worth mulling over.

So, when Hubz is back... how do I pull back from being the independent female that I am, to taking the back seat in the relationship and letting him have reign for abit whilst I get back to being a wife?
Geez, that all typed out, I don't know if I've ever done that since we've been married, even! *OMG*

Sheesh. Trust the brain to come up with all these last night, when all I wanted was for the eyes to shut!

Reading..... and you.

2009-08-15T16:53:00.002+03:00

Went to the library again today to get fresh new reads. I got 4, Mum (!!!) got 1.

I started on 'The Secret Between Us' by B. Delinsky rightaway... whilst waiting for Daddy to pick us up from the library. The storyline was almost Jodi Picoult-ish, but the flow is good, and the read is something which we can definitely relate to.

So I read.. I read through the car-service in Eunos.
I read in the car, waiting for the folks who did their dusk prayers.
I read even during dinner, in btw spoonfuls of my Mee Hoon Goreng and Daddy's satay.
Time check: 3 hours down, and a quarter of the book to go.
I continued whilst Daddy drove into and out of Geylang to view the Raya decor light-up - a feat, considering it was dark in the car, and I had to change reading positions several times.
And on the PIE on the way home, I was down to the last few pages of the book.
Time check: Nearly 4 hours at the book.

BUT that's not the point of this entry.

I remember how you hated it I started on a new book.... I remember how you hated even seeing any of my reads around the house.
You would try all ways and means, including tossing it out of your sight, over me, under the bed, into the kitchen, out the door.
You would even hide my book in odd places, then feign innocence when I asked. And I always thought it was just my normal clutterbrain misplacing the books... but why and how did I place the book at top of the wardrobe??????
Spending our often-lazy evenings curled up in front of the TV, you would sacrifice changing your soccer channels just so I wouldn't use that as an excuse to read.
And some nights when I fall asleep early, you would take the book from my side and keep it, for you know when the book is away from my view, there was a 75% chance that I would forget about reading it the next day.

And when I questioned your hatred for books, you say when I read, I'm always immersed.
And that makes you feel lonely.

I'd always thought you were silly, hating my books to that extent.

But in the car just now, its this particular silliness of yours that creeps up in my memories.
It's funny - At that point, I just teared in the backseat of the car, and it was not even because of the read!
I'd finally understood.

I miss you, silly husband of mine.
I am waiting, (still) patiently. Come back soon.

XXX

of changes, and coping.

2009-08-15T09:36:00.002+03:00

With Reza just gone to BKK for a week, I think Mummy is missing her 2 boys, although she's too strong a woman to let on.

Many of our relatives commented that it won't be that bad since I'm still staying with her eventhough Ajeeb's left to stay with his in-laws after the wedding. And even then, his in-laws is a mere 10-mins bus ride away!
Even I thought so, for even when the boys are home, they will be pre-occupied with:
1) work,
2) soccer (Ajeeb),
3) friends (Reza),
4) dates,
5) AOB.
So technically, they spend more time outside then they do at home! So it should make no difference if they aren't around these days, whether they are staying here or not.... right?

WRONG.
She doesn't talk about it, but I think I know how she feels.

She just misses her boys.
It didn't matter if they spent more time outside previously, but the little things they do when they are home sees her through.
Like Ajeeb watching Tv and putting his head on her lap (he is afterall, the manja one).
Like Reza getting ready and the only one that can fold his sleeves properly is Mummy (chet, not even me!).
Like both of them looking for her, for anything of theirs that she's kept in place somewhere (I am of course a better self-organizer so I don't need to ask her about most of my stuff... just maybe the dozens of times I've misplaced the keys and my purse).
So maybe, its these little things that she misses.

And over the past few months we have been concentrating on the changes in our lives - we could have missed out the fact that Mummy is undergoing changes in hers too. That she too, is undergoing a period of adjustment.

Some days, I see her looking back at old (*fugly) photos of us when we were younger, her eyes glistening. But she knows that changes are here to stay, and she will persevere.
Because she is just that strong a woman.

:)

Now, I wonder how it would be when Reza gets enlisted in October.

The JOB

2009-08-14T14:19:00.002+03:00

I found an almost-perfect freelancing opportunity today which involves something related to what I'm doing now, only muc much much fun-ner (heh!).
Just don't want to rush into it too quickly considering the school + attachments and such nots.
Hoping to ponder through my options, and if all goes well, I can finally have that fresh new breath of relief from the financial stress of now :)
Insyaalah, for we can plan, but He knows best.

a lil chipmunk told me

2009-08-10T17:32:00.002+03:00

That Alvin's going back to work on GS!!!!!!

yeayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. hehe. quite happy for him, its been a long while hoping!

And this time, the Ice Queen is no longer around too :))

So there's one more ally for Gav, and the rest of them locals.

2009-08-10T17:30:00.000+03:00

Sagittarius
11/22 – 12/21

Begin your week with an energetic flourish! You're full of verve and vitality on Monday, and you can accomplish almost anything -- at work, at home or in your love life. Starting on Tuesday and into Thursday morning, your communication skills are without equal -- you can get your point across clearly and persuasively, and no argument is too subtle or complex. On Thursday afternoon and on into Saturday, you'll want to daydream and philosophize, but you'll have a hard time getting in deep. Don't get frustrated -- sometimes talking the talk is just as good as walking the walk. This Sunday, follow your mood and don't hold back.

N@tional Day Weekend

2009-08-10T17:17:00.003+03:00

Had fun, as usual. Each weekend, we manage to do something more crazy than the last, heh.

H@ppy Birthdays, Mama, Cik Noor & Singapore!!!!!!!!

Making do.

2009-08-04T15:53:00.003+03:00

Its just a lil over 1 month since Hubz went back to work, and I am slowly getting back the pace of life without him around. The first few days - weeks were horrible, and each night when he called, I had to wipe off those tears, for fear that it would ruin the one chance at proper conversation I actually get with him each day. Also because I didn't want him to worry too much. I am happy to note that I don't cry as often now, which is good progress. I guess it will always be like this in times to come. Somethings I can just not change :)

School is finally, finally giving us a short break 3 weeks, wooohooo. But in the meantime, I do have to get back to the Centre for the attachments and although I love being with the kids and the artsy fartsy things I get to do with the classroom(s), there are still million and one things I would love to change. But organizational policies will remain as it is, and until when I am learned enough to be able to influence and effect changes (2011 plssssssssss come quick), for now, I will just make do with taking down notes for future use.

Somethings been bothering me these few days, and not that it will create a massive headline or something... but I don't understand the locals and their hesitance to smile at others. I am a generally smiley, friendly person and I would not hesitate to say hi to the next person who smiles at me (not flirtatiously, ya'all!)....... and the short few years I've had working overseas were filled with morning smiles from people down the street, people I have never met, people who would say 'hello' at seeing a foreign face. Now, that's public courtesy. Sad to say, Singaporeans (most, I would say) lack this trait. Or maybe, they are too caught up in their own worlds to notice other people around them. No wonder we don't fare too high up the most-friendly city list. I wonder if there are any committees promoting such public courtesy. Maybe we should even have a smile campaign. For now though, I would just make do with smiling. Even if the smile falls right back to me :)

Weekends are never spent locally anymore. In a month of 4 weekends, we spent 3 @ the Jb loft, and 1 @ the Tpi house. Pretty busy, we have been driving up and down the causeway, hehe. On the positive note, I have now mastered quite a few routes in Jb, and am quite proud to say I am not really afraid of driving there, as many of my friends have complained about. And of course, grocery & toiletry shopping has proven much cheaper for our household :)

Am looking forward to the fasting month hehe as I attempt to complete the whole month. God willing, I will get over all distractions!

Ok, too much rambling in a day. Next time!

The Week of August 3rd

2009-08-04T15:52:00.000+03:00

Sagittarius
11/22 – 12/21

Telling it like it is can become addictive, but before you start sharing your newfound wisdom with others, keep practicing it on yourself, especially at the start of the week. While a little bluntness is effective, it's not the only method available. Midweek, try being as kind and compassionate as possible when you're figuring out home truths and you'll find that your quality of life improves drastically. The weekend is a great time to give yourself a little pampering, especially if that means calling a dear friend and having a long chat.

Top 10 Wants.

2009-07-28T18:10:00.002+03:00

1) Porcelain white veneers, to correct my teeth alignment, and colouring.
2) My 1st official certificat de Francaise elementaire 1 (and then 2, and then 3) - just applied!
3) PADI Openwater Diving certification
4) A worry-free (this is a must!!!) getaway.
5) An MP4 player
6) A return trip to France, cos I'm missing it soooooo badly at the mo.
7) BB Storm
8) That long-awaited 2B license.
9) That 'Conversational Mandarin' certification - in process
10) That long-sought after BEd(Hons) - in process

The veneers, too costly for now. I need to save more. Didn't know dental cosmetics was as expensive as getting many shots of botox! heh.

The PADI course - I would love to do it with Hubz when he gets back in a few months, only thing is we'd prolly be experiencing the start of the monsoon season then, so I don't know if it would be an option.

A worry-free getaway, righhhhhhhhht. I really don't think that can be satisfied for now, as datelines continue to bog me. How not to worry, like that? So, I'd prolly have to wait until the whole course ends. We're looking at Oct 2011 here. Urggghhh.

An MP4 player for my 28th, anyone?

The trip to France, let's cross our 10 fingers it will be set for next year, April. I'm counting down already.

Oh, BB Storm is another birthday wish! :)

The 2B. This one's been 8 years counting.

So there, my current want list. Of course, this list will only probably hold out till the end of August, heh.

Monday blues.... NOT.

2009-07-27T17:13:00.002+03:00

There must be something about today.

I cooked.

Parents are, as I type, karaoke-ing.

Hubz last call during his lunch hour - extra chatty + bubbly.

Heh. Monday blues - thing of the past?

a long busride

2009-07-24T09:21:00.002+03:00

did the implementation of our water play kit @ Brighton, Fort Road this morning. All went well, and I got to know this very very streetwise lil French-Chinese kid, Cristienne. Suffice to say, he made me want to send my kids to a Montessori, in future.

As I didn't know the way there when I went in the morning, I decided against taking the car and had Daddy send me there instead. The journey back (taking Bus 14, top deck) was such a long, nice one. Its been sometime since I really sat my ass on a long bus ride, it actually reminds me of being back in secondary school, which was really nostalgic.

Loved looking at each and every house lining the whole road from Mountbatten to Upp East Coast to Siglap. Some of those houses are so indecently huge, I could play hide and seek without EVER being caught. I think of the people who own them, they MUST be millionaires at the very least. But I wonder if they actually need the space?

If I ever had that kind of money, now what type of place would I buy?

(Let's not factor Hubz into this question, cos I know he'd want to buy the whole of Bintan and re-develop the entire island. And if he could re-develop all of its people and especially the ruling bodies, he would too!)

:)

great minds think alike :)

2009-07-23T18:39:00.004+03:00

@ the library, Botany Centre, SG Botanic Gardens.

one for the 9th

2009-07-20T19:28:00.003+03:00

So hey hey, we're 9 months past (if I were expecting, I'd be on the delivery bed somewhere panting and huffing my way through labour by now, but shucks maybe 2010 hehehe).

Truth be told though, I'd expected more thorns than beds of roses along our way the past months, but all's been good. in fact, its been more than good. Hubz is, in fact, more patient than I give him credit for, I have been amazed at more than several occasions. The fact that he has not been pushing me to start cooking, but instead cooks for me, is one huge reason I am falling more in love with him, heh heh.

I don't know why, but I get these emotional imbalances some days, when I wake up with a jolt, and start crying when I realise he is not on the other side of the bed. I guess it takes some getting used to, afterall, he'd only left for work 3 weeks ago. I still have about a gazillion more weeks to pine for him, until the next time he gets back.

So, 3 more months to our first hurdle. The 1st year.
And so far, the road's been pretty clear.
Alhamdulillah.
:)

The Week of July 20th

2009-07-20T19:27:00.000+03:00

Sagittarius
11/22 – 12/21

Energies are mismatched as the week begins, and that means trouble if you're trying to get things done. The obvious solution -- on Monday and Tuesday, at least -- is to relax and worry more about making connections than making progress. Others will respond well to your open-minded, philosophical mood. On Wednesday, Thursday and the better part of Friday, you'll be inspired to take action once again -- which is good, since luck is decidedly on your side. It's a great time for ridiculous risks (as in funny, not dangerous) and attempting the impossible, provided you've got the proper sense of humor. This weekend, slow down and resist the urge to rush ahead -- you need to cover all the details first.

The Week of July 13th

2009-07-14T17:52:00.001+03:00

Sagittarius
11/22 – 12/21

From where you stand at the start of the week, you can see the big picture and the small picture at the same time. It's a dizzying perspective, but your ability to hold both images in your mind simultaneously is a testament to your mental powers. And it's going to be the key to your success. Beginning midweek -- Wednesday to be exact -- your approach to events is rather philosophical. Direct questions are met with circumspection. You're holding your cards close to you, which isn't to say you aren't doing anything. Thursday and Friday you're the opposite of bored. This weekend, devote yourself to someone else.

1001.

2009-07-10T19:04:00.002+03:00

its our time to go through the home-buying process. ideally, i want the parents to stay with me. and let's not forget the youngest bro.
so we need a minimum of 3 rooms, plus a spare one that can double up as a study/guest/househelper(in future) room.
so 4 rooms in total.
which leave sus with these choices:

a) 5rooms
b) 5EA
c) EM

since we already are living in Dad's EA now, i don't see much sense in me buying (a) or (b), it'd still be the same, no? besides the EM promises enough space for all of us.

and location-wise. I'm ok for a change, but I can sense some hesitation in the parents, the eastside had always been where they grew up. nostalgia, i s'pose.

so here we go, here's to our next step up the ladder of life.
and to the next months of planning and contemplating and deciding.

ideas and feedback most welcome :)

The Week of July 6th

2009-07-08T17:59:00.000+03:00

Sagittarius
11/22 – 12/21

You'll be unusually obsessed with money and material things as this week begins, but that doesn't mean you need to be a grumpy Scrooge. You'll have the originality on Monday and Tuesday to find creative ways to pinch pennies (like packing your own lunch?). On Wednesday and Thursday, you're at your outgoing, confident best, and others will be smitten by your charms. Make close connections and learn something new. On Friday and Saturday, you might have trouble getting going, so the best solution might just be staying put. This Sunday, embrace your inner kid. Go on and goof off!

Reruns.

2009-06-20T20:21:00.002+03:00

Prison Break S1.

with you beside me, its just like old times.

how come it feels like just yesterday, when it was over a year ago?

oh, btw... I am still breathing PEOPLE!

or, you can say, panting.

LOL!

His Indonesian influence.

2009-06-11T15:29:00.004+03:00

Bagiku semua sangat berarti

Ku ingin kau di sini

Bagiku semua sangat berarti lagi

Ku ingin kau di sini

Tak kan pernah ada yang lain di sisi

Segenap jiwa hanya untukmu

Dan tak kan mungkin ada yang lain di sisi

Ku ingin kau di sini tepiskan sepiku bersamamu

Hingga akhir waktu

Officially.Married

2009-06-06T20:06:00.002+03:00

thank you, thank you, thank you.

for all those who made it possible.

The Week of May 25th

2009-05-25T14:51:00.000+03:00

Saggitarius

You are attracted to philosophical ideas at the beginning of the week, but nothing

seems to be sticking. Nothing seems to apply to you. You're distracted. You're

anything but bored. Wednesday and Thursday, when those distractions fade into

the distance and you have nothing but your own thoughts to keep you company,

a philosophic mode of thinking will once again figure fairly strongly. Friday

and Saturday, your pleasures are tangible -- a bonus, a travel upgrade,

something like that -- but Sunday is super low-key.

a pointer.

2009-05-21T18:30:00.002+03:00

Mummy to Ajeeb: Tiga2 anak mak lain, akak lain, ajeeb lain, eta pun lain...

(translation: All my kids are different. Your sister is different from you, and you are different

from your youngest brother)

Ajeeb (interrupting Mummy): ah yes, akak is MILD, ajeeb is MEDIUM and eta is HARSH.

i thought this was funny. i laughed my ass off in the car when he said that.

he was of course referring to our individual temper volatility levels.

and yes, he got that one point in the basket on this fact.

the hands on the clock go round and round.

2009-05-21T15:13:00.003+03:00

so BHSP was an A.
just got Prof Devt in, and Math is the whole of this weekend till Tuesday.
Tuesday, I wish you were here in an eyeblink.

Survivor robbed me of a good night's sleep on Monday. That 'Coach" guy looks really good when he's all cleaned up. He reminds me of someone.
And American Idol... gosh. Eventhough I find Allen truly cute and laid back and droolsome and cool and humble and everything else I would idolise for in a guy, I was truly surprised he actually WON!!! And the way he hugged wifey at the end of the show - AwWWWwwwwwwwwwww.

8 days to the B.I.G day. at this point, we are finalizing the finer details in the programmes, and settling last minute crop-ups. Looking forward to that final fitting on Tuesday, wondering how the Hubz will look like in his matador-inspired suit. LOL!

The owner of this heart (and everything else around it) gets back on Tuesday. Baby, its a date!
:)

for the 19th

2009-05-20T12:54:00.001+03:00

Happy 7th month solemnization anniversary baby.

You know, I'm waiting.

;)

about the 30th.

2009-05-17T07:39:00.003+03:00

got the bed, just not the space. tsk. woulda loved more time to recreate our supposed new room, but at this point, 13 days away, i don't really think so. so with the old room, we will stay for now.
I can get all excited about recreating our new room after the whole sheeshkabang is over.

So my chauffeur is a P.O, and my co-chauffeur is a preggy P.O... how cool is that, I get 2 national bodyguards of my own! thanking of course, SSgt Ana for making the arrangements for the wedding car :)

Hubz gets back in 9 days. In between these 9 days, I have 2 major assignments due. I am sure they will keep me from counting down. Not to mention having classes in the morning, on the day of Hub'z touchdown and also on Ajeeb's nikah day! What bummers.

got through (most of the) Dunman peeps that I spent most of my teenhood with... AND most of the guys ARE FATHERS!!!! lol. can't believe these are the same guys that played prank-calls and whatnots to us nice girls back then. heh.

don't know whether to get the daily maid help for next weekend, to get the house in tiptop condition before Ajeeb's big night. Mum's busy with many other stuff, and I've got the assignments to occupy me.
Anyone with any experiences with daily maid, do email me leenie_29@hotmail.com and share your stories?

Swine Flu coming into Asian countries scares me. Terrible bug, this is. on another note, the HFMD outspread at my centre is slowly but surely clearing off... My kids are trickling back into class.. more in numbers each day :)

I'm so looking forward to that family vacation with the 2 curlies, its their 1st time taking an aeroplane (even if its just for 1.5hrs!) - that should be an adventure, hehe. I remember each time they sent me off at the airport previously and ended up bawling their eyes out wanting to follow me through the airport gates... now they're finally getting to go past those glass gates!

Moving some stuff to the JB house in mid-June... now, we are already dismantling the old, but still-sturdy metal-framed IKEA beds from the boys' bedroom and the one in Mama's spare room. June's set to be a very time-hassled month! Although we are having some fun already planning the weekend BBQs and poker sessions, the weekend breakfasts in Malacca.... and the short trips to Genting. all this, even before moving ANYTHING. shhessshh.

In envy of Ajeeb & Fanna's Greece getaway.... Santorini looks sooooooooo inviting. tsk.
Chile must wait till the swine flu scare is over, hopefully end of the year, please? And, I only want Chile... nowhere else *daggerstares the travel agent*.

ok, on a serious note now. 9/13 more days.
I need to get this marker.pens - coloured paper - glue and scissors - files - notes - calculator - drawings - sketchpads - bags - shoes - accessories - timetables - crayons -brushes - acryllic paint filled room in order.
that's gona take me at least 3 days! uuurghhhhh.

14th May 2009

2009-05-14T19:11:00.004+03:00

And Ssgt Eddy is 21!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(he has been for the past few years... and will be for the next coming years!)

to my BBF,

thank you for entertaining me with all your quirky stories, thank you for being you, thank you

for the bitching and the listening, thank for all those twisted love stories we shared and shared

and shared, thank you for the concern, thank you for sinful (not because it wasn't halal, ok!)

meals and coffees, thank you for the time.

9 years since TP is a long time... but we are still together!!!

Happy Birthday you.... I wish for nothing but much love and well-wishes for this coming year.

Love love,

Another day, another $

2009-05-12T17:59:00.002+03:00

The money seems to be endlessly pouring out of these not-so-deep pockets the past few weeks,

no thanks to the upcoming wedding. When I thought everything was more or less settled, turns out,

the number of invites have to be further upped due to the parents going on an invitation frenzy with

them pretty-looking cards.

I can confidently say, I project bankruptcy by the end of next month.

THANKFULLY tho, Hubz gets back in e.x.a.c.t.l.y 2 weeks, just in time to pay of the Mak Andam balance

for me.

14 days now!

The Week of May 11th

2009-05-12T17:44:00.001+03:00

Sagittarius
11/22 – 12/21
At work or play, your performance is much admired as the week gets under way. And for good reason: Your self-confidence makes whatever you do a success, or at least a successful experiment. Around Wednesday or Thursday, you might be fixated on a thing rather than the people or ideas around you. It's odd. Why are you so captivated (if not obsessed)? Figure it out, because when the weekend comes, you'll want to be wide open to the whole spectrum of life around you. Excellent energy's all yours now. Use it or lose it!

Reflective

2009-05-08T19:57:00.004+03:00

i notice that each time my time of the month comes, i go through this reflective period, where i

become reminiscent. its not necessarily bad... but its not all that great either because i tend to also

be a tad too emotional when i get through it.

this week, I had my Creative Arts module presentation due, and it came at a none better time for I

believe I was able to reflect deeper into myself with the art pieces that I presented (with the help of

my time of the month, if that makes sense?).

The artist statements that we had to do for each piece really deepened our understanding of how we

viewed the subject that we chose. (As in really really truthfully!)

Mine was 'The evolution of Time, and Life'.

H.F.M.D

2009-05-06T15:12:00.002+03:00

So the Centre that I'm attached to has been hit by the HFMD virus, which is quite a bad virus for them kids. Last week, we had 2 confirmed cases, and 2 suspected cases. This week, only 2 of my toddlers came to class, which gives you guys an idea of how easily and quickly this virus spreads. Although we haven't encountered any serious cases thus far, we have called in professional cleaning services to disinfect the whole school, and everything else is being cleaned and disinfected everyday. Health checks upon arrival are being stepped up a notch.

I just miss my kids, and the mayhem that they bring into class with them. oh, and the noise.
I hope they are well, at least... and looking forward to the day they are well enough ot return to class!

Norah Jones, close to heart.

2009-05-04T20:57:00.003+03:00

Yesterday I saw the sun shinin',

And the leaves were fallin' down softly,

My cold hands needed a warm, warm touch,

And I was thinkin' about you.

Here I am lookin' for signs of leaving,

You hold my hand, but do you really need me?

I guess it's time for me to let you go,

And I've been thinkin' about you,

I've been thinkin' about you.

When you sail across the ocean waters,

And you reach the other side safely,

Could you smile a little smile for me?

'cause I'll be thinkin' about you,

I'll be thinkin' about you,

I'll be thinkin' about you.

The Week of May 4th

2009-05-04T17:23:00.001+03:00

Sagittarius
11/22 – 12/21
All you wanted was one or two pieces of chocolate. On Monday, you're going to get a lifetime supply. That's how the day will go. Abundance abounds. Try to let your pleasure last as long as possible, because an encounter with an authority figure on Tuesday or Wednesday threatens to dampen your mood a bit. Nevertheless, Thursday is a great day socially (your friends are plainly hilarious) and Friday is a great day personally (someone is going to tell you how much they love spending time with you). This weekend, there's a chance you'll be feeling moody -- and not for any particular reason. You have big plans on your mind.

The day before a Public Holiday

2009-04-30T17:57:00.002+03:00

Recognition is a sweet surprise.... Especially if its not expected.
Thank you RTRC.
And thank you babes of Squadron 39.

but again leme say, I won't be able to save all of you in case ya'all were counting on that!
:)

The Week of April 27th

2009-04-29T15:43:00.000+03:00

Sagittarius
11/22 – 12/21

You just aren't so sure about what you need to do next when the week begins -- but keep asking questions! You're in the right frame of mind to accept big changes, or sets of small changes that add up to something great. When things start to gel (Thursday or Friday, most likely), your good mood is ineradicable and you should find that those around you are caught up in your excitement. Bills and red tape may consume at least a good chunk of your weekend, so get ready for some detail-heavy drudgery.

on this particular tuesday.

2009-04-28T20:26:00.002+03:00

i thought i should update lest the day's event becomes just another lost memory in this head.

I got a chance to save a life, and I did.

And I feel good for doing so, even if it meant diving into the river in my tee and jeans and presenting my very wet self to the security and police officers and paramedics and whoever else arrived after that to get statements and details etc (girls, these days, i recommend wearing a bikini underneath just in case....!), and also to the whole class + lecturer Mr Phillip who rushed down to the scene thanks to Ollie and Illa who saw the whole dramatic event (yes my lil bunny Illa initially thought I was running like a mad woman to get a photo of the merlion!!!) and then to have the Chinese lady that I saved ask why someone saved her (yes, turns out she was on a suicide attempt, people).

so yeah, today was definitely very memorable. and the next person who asks me if I would do it all over again considering the dangers and everything else - why NOT? (but maybe this time I'd wear shorts or something less heavy instead?)

and God even gave me a lil bonus... for in the evening my very-much-missed husband called me (he hasn't the past week cos he was busy with the cruising).

:)

there, that's my Tuesday.

The weekend @ random.

2009-04-26T20:54:00.003+03:00

Came and went too fast.

Saturday evening night saw the house turned into a mini bazaar, with boxes and tapes strewn all over the living room. my helper elves worked till past 1am in the morning doing the packing of the wedding favours whilst the guys cursed and swore over the Man U game. At the end of the day, we had stacks and stacks of neatly packed favours ith an appreciative thank you to my curly boy-elf who was in such a good mood, he even cleared the rubbish, AND helped tape the packages up.
Of course, he told me to tell Bajib that he should be paid RM 1 for each package that he tapes and stacks, so that would work out to be roughly RM100, which he will use to get himself a set of Nintendo Wii.
it was a deal we shook on, but my only role was too pass on the message to Bajib, wasn't it?
:)

Today, house-hunting @ Jb. Still undecided whether to get the condo, or the terrace, both costs around the same, each with pros and cons. I think its gona be the house, cos there's more space (for the already-planned Bbqs and weekend gatherings and whatnots), but the pool and the sauna @ the condo is still an enticing option. ho well.

Mummy and Ayah went on housecalls to get the invite cards sent to the elderlies. 33 days more to the BIG day.
Its funny, some days I will for time to slow down, other days, I lie in bed hoping that when I close my eyes a month would have passed by. These days I'm really excited at just getting the whole she-bang-bang wedding over and done with, and then finally, just finally, can I settle down and get to doing what I need achieved. I hope.
There's a million and one thoughts in this head, but a particular one stands out amongst the rest of them and its a nagging want.
or maybe at this stage i should already classify it as a NEED. a desperate need, at that.

the next week will bring along hilarity I am sure, because we are supposed to do this very kental music video to the tune of HOT and COLD (Katy Perry?) but with teacher-related lyrics, and present that to the whole class on Thursday. of course at the point of typing this down, we have YET to shoot the video, or do the background singing voiceover, or do the lyrics flashcards (since we are amateurs and do not know how to do the lyrics as subtitles). Tuesday or Wed we'd be doing it, I am so sure we'll have fun. So sure to the point that its a promise.

ok, school tomoz, so this cheacher has got to sleep. try, at least. the cool night shower helped lessen the sticky feeling in this humid weather, but of course will NOT help in getting me to sleep now. c-l-e-v-e-r.

24th April 2009

2009-04-23T19:49:00.005+02:00

All women become like their mothers. That is their tragedy.

No man does. That's his.

~Oscar Wilde, The Importance of Being Earnest, 1895

21.04.09

2009-04-21T18:20:00.003+02:00

34 days to having him home.

so its been a week since I've started the 30min walk-home-from-the-MRT station routine,

the nightly half-hour skips-on-the-rope,

and the dutiful cycle of 50 sit-ups (ok, some evenings i do just about 20).

the early dinners and NO other junk food / suppers thereafter - this was of course, the HARDEST.

and, I've lost nearly 2 kilograms already, so thats good news.

I'm looking at trying to lose at least 5 kilos more over the next month, which could be easier said

than done. but i'll try, coz it gives me a sense of achievement (even with Ajeeb's annoying grins and

remarks), not to mention having that really good feeling each morning. I don't feel so lethargic

anymore in classes, and that's wayyyy cool!

I don't know where all my years of netball (abt 7 years of it) and track & field (thats 9 years of it)

have gone to.

In the past I thought that track & field would be my life, and that I would run and run and run

and jump and jump and jump (and keep em trophies and medals till I can make my own room of

museum collection and pass them down to my kids and grandkids as family heirloom) even when I'm

married with 5 kids, but once I finished school, that plan just left my system. or maybe, I deserted it.

And now, when the going gets tough and the tough needs to exercise, my 27, going on 28-year old

body feels like I've NEVER ever taken up any kinds of sports since birth.

what a damn shame, considering its been just about 7-8 years ago that I was at the TOP of my athletic

form, an intervarsity school athlete garbed in the latest sports-branded sponsored kit feeling

oh-so-on-top-of-the-podium, grabbing trophies from all of my individual events - no effin' joke!

WHERE DID THAT GIRL with the abs and oh-so-fit body GO TO?

she must still be in me somewhere. probably submerged within these tubby love handles circling

my expanding waistline.

so yes. from now on, I will try and keep up a daily exercise routine, however simple it may be.

and I will not desert this plan, EVEN after the wedding. heh.

38 days to THE day.

wish me luck with the exercise, people.

What Monday blues?

2009-04-20T08:42:00.002+02:00

So for a Monday, today was VERY good.

Lovely morning (not even late for school, woohooo)

Great breakfast - Mummy's egg sandwich which I shared with baby Ronaldo

My favourite class - them Toddlers, ooooh.

Thank god for the grey-ing skies, for I couldn't have asked for a better weather to WALK home (which is my chosen form of exercise these days, by the way).

No Mr Sun to shine its fierce rays down on me (of course, if Mr Sun was out, I would then use him as an excuse to NOT walk and just take the 10min busride home!!).

And, the greying sky held out till I got home - No raindrops fallin' on me head either.

Wow.

So because of the great start, I feel i will have a great rest of the day.

That MATH homework - piece of cake, Illa and Ollie will be proud of me, hehe.

The hundreds of addresses to write on invite cards (yes, cards will be in your mail soon, people!) - chicken feet.

The thought of yet another massage session later - hit me, baby!

The Monday blues - SAY WHATTT????

There. I am a happy hippo.

The Week of April 20th

2009-04-20T08:38:00.000+02:00

Sagittarius
11/22 – 12/21
If you start the week with something new -- preferably something totally unprecedented -- you are almost sure to get going in exactly the right direction and make a huge difference in your life path. Great energy surges in on Wednesday and forces you to take a playful view of your surroundings. Anyone who's grumpy or irritable might not like it, but you're playing games with those nearby. Watch out for bills, paperwork and other mundane tasks this weekend, because they may cloud your mind -- but they are vitally important!

6 months!!!!

2009-04-19T17:01:00.002+02:00

Okay.

I seriously have no idea where the time went to.

I mean, we all go to somewhere, RIGHT?

We can't just be moving round and round without any directions.

Unless of course, we get lost.

So, this TIME guy, who keeps moving and moving, and never stopping.

WHERE DOES HE GO TO??????

Any wise ones with answers?

Aside from that thought of the day...........

Happy 6 months' anniversary sayang :)

18th April 2009

2009-04-19T16:56:00.002+02:00

Her debut date.

A Saturday, clever girl.

I thank God I am around for this second child of hers. I missed her 1st, and didn't get to see him all pinky and small and oh-so-newborn.

This time, I did.

Alhamdulillah.

Congrats babe.

Here's to the next few months of waking up every 2 hours.

And even if no one supports that - I SO DO.

Love love.

Jax

The Week of April 13th

2009-04-13T14:19:00.000+02:00

Sagittarius
11/22 – 12/21
You're feeling the confidence that comes with knowing you are in sync with the universe on Monday and Tuesday -- go forth and do great things! Your belief in yourself may cause others to look at you in a new way. Like quite a few other people, you are focused on financial issues midweek, especially as they relate to you and your personal budget. It's not a good time for abrupt changes, but it is an excellent time to make plans and stick to them. Use your positive social energy to make real connections this weekend -- they are sure to pay off handsomely!

R.O.Z.A.L.E.E.N deciphered.

2009-04-12T19:27:00.002+02:00

You Are Carefree and Passionate

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience.

You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along. But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

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2009-04-12T11:28:00.003+02:00

We're back. Hate the weekend crowds at both ends. I swear the crowds brings out the worst of kiasu-ism in Singaporeans. tsk.

I wonder how I'm gonna cope with the cleaning up. Even with Mum helping out with cooking duties, I'm already struggling. The stairs exhaust me, and my master room is on the 2nd floor! We should've taken the single storeyed one. Me and my great big ideas. Urgghhh.

I think going over weekends is kinda tiring.. Rushing. I would like to be there without thinking of return schedules, and what time school starts on Monday.

Karaoke yesternight with the old folks was kinda hilarious. Didn't know they could be so obliging and sporting, those people. Only Ayah and Mummy were shy and holding back. Next time, I will force them up there.

Phone line, and Internet are up. Finally. Now Raze can go there without worrying about being disconnected from society. And Ooooh. My chilli plants are growing up beautifully. Altho' I'm still waiting for some sights of chillies. Could be in a couple of weeks. Can't wait.

Right, now for a lil zzzzz.

Letting the dates speak for themselves.

2009-04-09T19:06:00.004+02:00

14hours till going back to the house - I am damn right missing it, in ways that I never thought I would. Oh, being A proud house-owner! LOL.
9 days till our 6 month ROMM anniversary.
14 days till Mummy's 52nd, and the arrival of my 2nd godchild (assuming of course that lil Z is a duedate baby)
20 days till Prof Devt Presentation - URGH.
26 days to the Fitting - ooooh, that means I aint got much time left to trim some bits off!
28 days to Creative Arts Presentation - double URGH.
46 days till Hubby gets home - right next to whom he belongs.
49 days to officially getting myself a SIL - after 28 years, finally, a sister!
50 days to the BIG day - looking forward to it for all the wrong reasons!
5 months 5 days to Hubby's 31st - WHAT???!
6 months 9 days to our 1st Wedding Anniversary :)
7 months 3 weeks to my 28th - double WHATTTTTT???!!!
8 months 20 days to the end of 2009.
8 months, 21 days to the start of 2010.
9 months 13 days to Daddy's 57th.
9 months, 29 days to their 29th Anniversary.
10 months 20 days to my 1st graduation - let's not countdown to the 2nd grad date just yet cos it seems so far off still!

There, I'm all set.
At least till the end of 2010's Term 1 anyways!

cleaning up.

2009-04-08T17:51:00.002+02:00

I don't know why, but today was a cleaning up day. I even planned to do it in advance - now that's something.
maybe its because my room doesn't resemble a room anymore.
maybe because I'm afraid of getting an asthma attack.
maybe its because I'm sick and tired of seeing the mess (like finally).
so. clean up, i did.
n with a cleaner room, it sure feels much much much nicer to laze around.
I'm just missing the husband, or we'd have a complete picture. but wait a minute, if the husband was around, my room WILL never be messy. he won't let it.
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anyways. this month will mark our 6 month ROMM anniversary.
oh, and its ALSO been a whole effin' year since I got back for good. so quick, right?

but because Hubz had been away for the past 4 months or so, I haven't actually get to feel so married afterall.
Come to think of it, I still feel like a pretty much single student, something like in poly, but with more bills, and a better head on these shoulders. heh.
I don't know when I'd feel like the wife that I already am, since he hasn't mentioned coming back to work here for good. I don't even have much wifely duties, for starters.
No cooking - Mum takes care of that @ home (altho at some point I need to learn. Hubz is coming home, sooon!)
Not much to launder or iron, apart from my stuff. No clothes to pick out.
No coffee to serve.
No financial stuff to discuss, the reason being Hubz pays for most of the stuff. I just tell him the datelines!
What else is a wife supposed to do when the husband is around???
I don't even know, because I haven't had much experience even after 6 months!
I guess I'm pretty much havin' it easy for now. Maybe some months along, I'd be singing a different tune.
:p who knows, who knows??

For now though, I'm still striking out dates. Thats 6 weeks, 5 days more to go.
Not many more chances of having the messy room, eh???

The Week of April 6th

2009-04-06T18:42:00.000+02:00

Sagittarius
11/22 – 12/21

Take things slow and easy on Monday -- you could easily strain yourself, and you should instead seek to conserve your health and energy. Things pick up later in the week, though you may get tangled up in some legal business (nothing too outrageous, thankfully). Try to accept advice from unlikely friends and coworkers -- you need as many different points of view as you can accept. The weekend brings brainstorms and active flashes of intuitions, many of which are quite valuable, so find a way to record them all.

On turning 20.

2009-04-04T14:53:00.009+02:00

Dear you,

I thought a birthday card wouldn't contain all that I wanted to say to you, so here I am writing you a birthday blog-entry.
I know I will never, in a million years, be able to verbally express everything I want to - so here's me at my best, words directly from my heart.
You should already know I do better with writing than at speaking.

20 years ago, we rushed to the hospital to fetch you and Mummy home from the hospital. Me, Daddy and Abang. I didn't know what the fuss was all about, it was just a baby. It was just YOU. Daddy wrapped you up in that cloth-thing that Mummy told him to buy, and you looked so fragile. I didnt think I even wanted to touch you then, you were so pink.ish (and probably u.g.l.y). Abang probably took to you more warmly than I did then, I remembered him cooing and always wanting to hold you. Maybe its a boy-thing.

You were 4, or maybe 5, and i was just starting secondary school. You had the pau-cheeks. round and yummy. I liked to bite you, there was once I left a mark on your cheek which had Mummy screaming mad. I was told I can never bite you again. but you were growing up, and you were so cute throughout your preschool years. And that addiction to Daddy's camera flash - OMG, I swear me and Abang had so much laughs seeing you with just the flash, detached from the camera. But you didn't really care then. And me and Abang will always get it if we laughed at you - I still don't know why.

You started primary school, and Mummy joined your schools parent volunteer programme. She didnt join mine or Abang's but she joined yours! and everyday, she did your fringe exactly the way you wanted it (the currypuff fringe style was in then!). And she dressed you up like she did abang. school shorts WAYYYY above your waist, shirt neatly tucked in. you still had the chubby cheeks, but they were getting less chubbier by the year.

I was in upper sec, and starting to experiment out of the normal home activities. I wanted to go out with my friends more, I wanted to go out on weekends. But Mummy (being always the all-knowing her) knew I would probably not go where I said I was going... And she made you tag along... With all my friends. So, I was the girl with the cute brother who tagged along everywhere she went. I was hopping mad, but Mummy wouldn't let me have it any other way. I tried to secretly persuade you not to follow me (saying I was going o boring places, nothing for you to play with etc...), but most of the time, You still followed me.

And then you were finishing primary school. And I was already in poly. You got your results, we were so thankful. I was proud of you. I really was.

So you started secondary school. I was 21, young, legal, eager to see the world and seldom at home. You made a name for yourself in school, being the OVERACHIVER that you were, and all I hear were praises coming from Mummy's volunteer-parent friends (yes, Mummy volunteered EVEN at your secondary school!). You started dancing, and it was your life then. Sometime between your transition to upper secondary, yu probably went through your hormonal stage, and everything seemed to set you off. It hit Mummy hardest, because you were her baby, and when you started talking back and being the typical teenager, she couldn't see why you'd changed so quickly. And things were a lil mad at home, the frequent SQUABBLES both of you went through! And all I wanted to do was stay out of home, because I can't be bothered then.

I was the one who protected you from Mummy's violent tempers. I was the one who shielded you from whatever it was the she was hitting you with. I was the one who begged her to stop, even raising my voice at her to stop. It was usually me. And although these were all in the past, I remember it like it was just yesterday. I willed you to stop being rude and talking back to her, I was so mad at you for not knowing when to stop and just shut up. But I also didn't agree with her beatings. SO I did what I thought a sister would do. I put myself between you and her, and whatever it was that came my way, be it her hand, or a belt, I took it in my stride. When the beatings ceased, and you locked yourself up in your room, and she was probably in her room crying it out, I went back into my room and cried myself to sleep. I wished so hard that maybe you would just understand Mummy, and let it go, instead od being difficult like you were.Thankfully, Mummy saw light (or maybe it was the acknowledgement of your growing up phase), and the violent show-downs between the both of you quietened down.

I went away to work when you were just starting Sec 4. And because I wasn't around much, I made sure when I was back on vacation I spent some time with you. You were growing up, too quickly, that I sometimes miss the child that looked up to me. The child that I could do no wrong with.
In Sec 4, you were already fashion-conscious. And because we could afford it, you mostly got your way with your wants. And when I came back for my vacations, we went mad shopping. I indulged your whims. On after-thought, maybe I shouldn't have, because you came to take for granted our financial security. Mum and Dad was always telling me that. I shouldn't this, and I shouldn't that. I should'nt succumb to you indulgent requests. But as a sister, I thought, you should get anything that I was financially able to provide you with, because for that moment, I can. And I didn't believe in holding back, because I knew how much it'd probably mean to you. Because when I was younger, I thought it too, the only difference being, I seldom got it, because at that time, Daddy still had 3 school-going kids to support, and luxuries and wants were not on his list.
So you had everything you wished for, and maybe more. And I contented myself with knowing that I was supporting my brother, and that you don't have to rely on Daddy anymore, I could pay for your everything. Maybe it was ego-boosting for me, in a way.Looking back, maybe it made sense to make you see what the world is not as easy as saying "akak, can you buy me this, and that?" But at the end of the day, that's all done.
Hopefully though, you treasure what I've managed to provide you with, for those briefest years.

I don't know if I had played a part in making you the person you are now. I believe I might have, both in good and bad ways. Sometimes I think, you're just another spoilt last child wanting everything good, and then I think, I'm to blame for that, because I was the one who always gave in to you for the past years.

You went to poly, to the course of your choice. The past 3 years you've spent in poly have been a helluva time for this family. I remember Mummy calling me to 'complain' about your latest wayward behaviour, your neverending moodswings, and your financial demands on them. I was away, and I couldn't see the reason that had Mummy vexed most of the time. I always told her to be patient, because I truly felt that its just another adolescent phase that each child goes through at this stage of their life. Somehow Mummy thinks I am the only one that can speak to you, and that you would listen to me if I did.
She is wrong. You are at that stage in life where you would never listen to advices, where family comes second to friends, where going out is hands-down better than staying at home, where you just want to be free of rules, where parents and siblings are nothing but nuisances, where all you want to do in life is have fun, irregardless of your family member's feelings.
I know, because I've been there myself.
These days, after coming back home for good, I get to see the side of you that Mummy sees. The side of you that irks her. And although I have a higher tolerance level, there were some days that I just wreck my brains tryin to think why.
Because sometimes, you do that to us.

So this is my birthday wish for you.
I wish you would live life to the fullest, and enjoy these stages of your entry into the 20-s.
I wish you would go through these years, differentiating right from wrong, and even if it was wrong, knowing and learning from yours mistakes. because i believe if we never do mistakes, we'll never learn.
I wish you would have fun, because when you get to be as old as me, fun would be staying at home, or going out with the family.
I wish you all the joy and happiness in the world, and good health and wealth to come.
At the end of the day, I just wish you'd grow up further along the years to be a good man. I wish you learn from your recent phases of mistakes, and just hopefully, pick yourself up and move on.

And one of these days, I'd like to know it was all worth it shielding you all those times.
I'd like to see the brother that I so greatly love with all my heart grow to be a fine young man.
I'd like to know that maybe just a little part of you remembers.

Happy Birthday Babybro. I love you.
They say unconditional love is for a child. I'd like to change that, for I strongly believe a sister's love for her sibling surpasses any kinds of conditions, too. OR maybe it's just me :)

The truth, and nothing but the truth,
Your Only (emotional) Sister.

Its true.

2009-04-02T17:25:00.003+02:00

Love may be a fool's paradise, but it is the only paradise we know on this troubled earth.

-taken from My Eighty Years

I love you, from the first touches of the sun's rays, to the violet streaks of the darkening skies.

You make me smile and cry, and cry and smile. Either way :)

Soup for the soul.

2009-03-30T08:48:00.002+02:00

I have a feeling I really could do well opening a preschool centre of my own someday (*hint, hint* to hubby dearest).

Why, you may ask. Here goes..........

1. Kids are #1 inspiration in our lives (this, coming from a not-yet Mother, is something, ok!)
2. I will be my own boss, and hey, there will never be a day of work with kids around (again, I am not yet a mother, so to this date, I will STILL strongly believe in this point).
3. The demand-supply chain is stable.
4. The government will support this particular industry, as it ties in with their need of a younger population within the next 10 years.

And number 5 might be out-of-point, you may think. But to me its a hugeeeeeee factor.

Drumrolls for No. 5..........

You know how preschool centres have Aunties that cook breakfasts, lunches and teabreak snacks for them kids - And being under the age of 6 these kids typically eat kiddy foods, like brown rice, mashed meats, soupy soups of various kinds, and of course, the COMPULSORY vege portion (a lil overcooked, so the kids are able to eat them just fine)... and to add to this, the meals need to be nutri-fied, and certified by some governing health body at that....... well, THESE FOODS SUIT ME!!!!!!!!

I swear eversince I've put my feet into preschools, I slurp the soups, gobble up the oh-so-tasty mashed pasta, and even (this is the most important point of all) EAT ALL my veges!!! I have nay complains, when all the other Teachers seek more mature foodfares outside during their lunchtime, I happily tuck into Auntie's daily cooked kids' meal, with my kids!
For once in my life, I do not need to pickout any foodstuffs from my plates, anymore (apart from the random long beans, of course). Whoooooooooooohoooooooooooooooo.

So, dear husband, if you want your wife healthy and strong and eating all her Veges, all you need to do is sponsor her very own preschool Centre, with her very own cook-Auntie. Then you will never have her picking at her Veges ever again. And you (and Mummy, and sometimes Ayah) will never need to nag ever, ever again.

:)

The Week of March 30th

2009-03-30T08:33:00.002+02:00

Sagittarius
11/22 – 12/21
You begin the week in a fairly sluggish mood, hardly able to drag yourself to work or school or wherever you spend the day. You can still make it through the day, but it takes more energy than usual. A huge burst takes place Wednesday, and you spend a few days full of vigor and ready for a new level of romance. If you're single, get out there and mix it up with someone new. If not, spend extra time with sweetie. The weekend presents you with a to-do list that's longer than usual, but you can take care of the most important stuff right away.

Hubz @ Egypt.

2009-03-28T19:39:00.001+02:00

KFC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (*looks @ Ricky)

hur hur hur

in gratitude.

2009-03-24T17:43:00.003+02:00

Thank you God, for the extended lifeline.

2 more months to go now, God willing - without any more delays, or hiccups.

The Week of March 23rd

2009-03-24T16:17:00.000+02:00

making time

2009-03-16T18:16:00.002+02:00

An influx of assignments, exams and quizzes have made me the (un)social butterfly.

I am constantly forgetting things that I've read through just minutes ago, and this could be the first

signs of dementia. But I am pleased to note that I think I've managed to do well for the papers so far,

even with the ADDED burden of spending more time on revising.

I am still looking at that calendar on the wall each night before I go to bed, and crossing out the day

that's just ended. Which makes it one more down. Last night, it was 2 months 11 days more to go.

This is hopeful, by the way. I keep asking Hubs when he's coming home (much to his annoyance).

He might disown me the next time I ask. The other night we went to have coffee @ T2, and I so so

so wished I saw his face amongst all the travellers coming home.

I'll have to wait.

And, it'll be our 5th month anniversary in 3 days' time.

Just spoke to my SIL-to-be earlier and reminded her that its 2 months, 15 days more to go before

our BIG day. or THEIR big day to be exact, and me and Hubz 'guest' appearance. Lucky for me tho,

this event is 85% planned by Ajeeb, with me only needing to contribute my part of the $.

suits me though, cos frankly, I truly can't find the time to juggle everything like I did last October.

and I haven't even started on my invite list yet. I'm pretty much sure it would have more names

than I've been alloted.

Going back to our house (I actually do miss it!!) this coming weekend.... I look forward to a getaway

from the daily train/bus commutes, the hectic city life, and the mundane 4 walls in my room.

I just hope my bestie does not pop this weekend. Lil Z must wait for me!!!

I'm taking to reading novels these days (for lack of bedroom activities to do @ night, LOL).

I think over the past couple of months, I must have been @ the library each week, returning and

borrowing more books. I also think if there was ever an award for the most books read in a month, I

would win it hands down. My mum tells me I'm boring, the CHEEK!

ohhhhhhhhhh, speaking of which. was trying to help Reza straighten his fringe (yes he still spots

the '80s Aaron Kwok floppy fringe-do) and cos' we had some leftovers of the hair relaxer cream, we

also put some on the roots of my Mum's almost-impossibly stubborn-wavy hair. Turns out, the

cream relaxer has hydrogen peroxide amongst its contents, and that, along with the henna hair dye

I just applied on her yesternight (for the whites), did more than just straighten. It made her hair

brown.ish.

Like the teenager-next-door. To our amusement of course, Reza was only to happy to laugh his

big mouth off. I laughed till I had hiccups.

Needless to say, from now on, I am banned from ever touching her hair again.

My updates for now.

Going back to the book, and waiting for my faraway knight to call.

The Week of March 16th

2009-03-16T14:25:00.001+02:00

Sagittarius
11/22 – 12/21
You're full of surprises as the week begins, showing everyone why they love you so much with your jokes, gifts and games. Keep it up and see what happens next! Try to keep your wallet at home from Wednesday through Thursday and use other tricks to keep yourself from spending more than you can afford. Impulse buys are all too likely if you can't restrain yourself. You make a solid impression on at least one person you meet this weekend, and that could lead from anything from romance to artistic collaboration.

Bringing a WHOLE new sound to MJ's music.

2009-03-11T16:06:00.002+02:00

THAT Adam Lambert.

I am still in awe.

The Week of March 9th

2009-03-10T15:14:00.001+02:00

Sagittarius
11/22 – 12/21

You may need to hide out for a while on Monday and Tuesday, if only to avoid the impulse to bite other people's heads off! You are more irritable than usual, but that won't last forever. In fact, the middle part of the week is perfect for communicating even the most intricate details of your inner life, so sit down with sweetie or a friend and hash things out. Over the weekend, you may need to focus on your inner or spiritual life, which has been lagging for a while. Your mind is perfectly suited to the task!

wedding woes.

2009-03-05T18:21:00.002+02:00

its not MY dream wedding.

mine was already fulfilled in all its glory of simplicity, months back.

tsk.

oh, parents!

if only you both know how miserable i feel having to do this.

e.mail

2009-03-05T08:08:00.003+02:00

some nights when I'm on the lappie with not many things to surf for... I tend to go back

to all my emails, written and sent - those saved ones, for they bring back memories of yesteryears.

I try to not get sucked right back into the trappings of time, always remembering

of course that I am happy with the present, and the path I chose into the future,

God willing.

but in reading all the emails, I am able to see the person I was and have been

previously, and in more ways than 1, I am thankful that I'd managed to change.

There were so many happy moments then, I am adamant in believing that back

then, I'd manage to fly myself to Cloud 9. the Peak, no less.

But as every living

adult should know by 16 years of age, no good thing goes on forever, and the

person who came up with "life is like a rollercoaster" should have won the

equivalent of a Grammy, or an Oscar.

because its true.

the higher u fly, (and me, being me just had to fly to the highest point of

happiness on that Cloud no. 9), THE HARDER YOU FALL.

so yes, if memory serves me right, I'd gone through the happiest AND saddest

moments in my life (so far) back then. and my emails are saved, not because I

like to harp on the past. but because they serve as reminders. in a good way.

cos' we humans err all the time, but only when we learn from our errors to we make

the cycle better.

and i'd like to think I did, with my cycle.

for now, I'm content-ing myself with trying (yes, still) to be a good daughter, and

(now) wife.

let's start with cooking lessons, shall we?

Mari.Golds

2009-03-03T19:40:00.003+02:00

and my hardwork paid off - a month later, my blooming marigolds. ce-dey lah!

The Week of March 2nd

2009-03-03T19:14:00.001+02:00

Sagittarius
11/22 – 12/21
The week just expands and expands for you! Start out on Monday by focusing on tiny details like paint swatches or bill payment schemes, then move out into socializing midweek. You do need to take greater care then, as most folks are far more sensitive to slights and insults than usual, but you should manage just fine. Dive deeply into your love life or some other all-encompassing aspect of your existence: You can make great progress if you keep pushing. The weekend's energy is nearly perfect and offers an abundance of options for you.

The Week of February 23rd

2009-02-23T17:19:00.001+02:00

Sagittarius
11/22 – 12/21

The first half of the week brings several new opportunities, as well as ideas that seem bigger than those you've encountered previously. Jump on anything that seems right to you, because at least some of these options won't be repeated any time soon. Your great energy pops back on Thursday and helps you have lots of fun with your basic daily activities. Make a game out of cleaning or paperwork and let others in on the secret. The weekend is all about details, though you'd rather kick back and look at the long-term.

A French Affair - Susan Lewis

2009-02-20T18:09:00.002+02:00

I'd personally thought it be another one of those tragedic plots... ya know, Mum lose child and falls

into depression and drinks and dies in a car accident herself? Or maybe thats just my interpretation

of it.

On the depression part - I got it right. But the plot thickens, so to say. The myriad of emotions that

engulfs a family after a death, and finding that love (even the hidden ones) prevail after all that happens -

how come this French affair had a happy ending, I was asking myself repeatedly, for I'd braced myself up

for the monotony of a separation!

And I was sooooooooo engrossed in reading it, I spent the most part of my commute to & from school,

and then even whilst I waied for the bath to warm up - in the bathroom, mind you... and after the

rushed bath, the next 3 hours trying to lap it all up....

And now here I am, giving it a good rave - which I never expected to, if 1st read-throughs are anything

to go by.

I.like.the.roughneck.guy

2009-02-18T17:32:00.000+02:00

on Idol, season 8.

of Teenage Pregnancies & Births.

2009-02-16T15:48:00.003+02:00

I thought this was worthwhile highlighting, the extent of cluelessness these mere kids must have!
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LONDON - A 13-year-old boy pictured in a British tabloid cradling an infant is reportedly one of the country's youngest-known fathers. Baby-faced and only 4 feet (1.22 meters) tall, the boy, Alfie, was just 12 when he impregnated Chantelle, now 15, The Sun said. Shown in a video posted Friday to the tabloid's Web site, Alfie looks more like he's 8, not 13, as he takes the newborn girl in his arms.

Asked what he would do to support the child financially, Alfie asks in a high-pitched voice, "What does financially mean?"
The girl was reportedly taking birth control pills but missed one, the newspaper reported. Friends and relatives left the family home near Eastbourne, about 70 miles (110 kilometers) southeast of London, without speaking to reporters waiting outside Friday. The teenagers could not immediately be contacted. The Sun did not say whether any tests were conducted to prove the boy's paternity.
Police and child services in Eastbourne, in southeast England, said in a statement that they were "aware of a 14-year-old girl that had become pregnant as the result of a relationship with a 12-year-old boy," adding that they were offering support to both young people.
Alfie's front page picture has sparked renewed debate about teen pregnancy in Britain. The country has one of the highest teen pregnancy rates in Europe, and government figures show that about 39,000 girls under age 18 became pregnant in 2006. More than 7,000 of those girls were younger than 16.
"I don't know the individual details of the case, but of course I think all of us would want to avoid teenage pregnancies," Prime Minister Gordon Brown said on Friday.
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On the Net:
http://www.thesun.co.uk/sol/homepage/

The Week of Feb 16th

2009-02-16T15:47:00.001+02:00

Sagittarius
11/22 – 12/21
The raw power of your personality is fully manifested this week, primarily during the first few days. Your confidence shoots through the roof, and you honestly believe yourself capable of anything -- which is almost all you need to accomplish your wildest ambitions! Money may be a concern on Thursday or Friday, but as long as you're willing to deal with it directly, you should come through fine. The weekend is perfect for socializing and dating, as you find it much easier to really connect with people.

tap tap tap.

2009-02-13T19:57:00.002+02:00

kinda feeling a tad emotional these coupl'a days. its either I really am going soft, OR it could be the

amounting pressures of assignments + projects datelines (that of course, the procrastinator me is only

worrying about now, not like a month back when I should have started!!!) and other bits and pieces

surmounting from a normal nuclear family life.

i took comfort in that surprised, mouth agape, head shaking, tsk tsk-ing sound Hubby started when

i (*suddenly) started sobbing yesterday. I didn't know whether to laugh at seeing his reaction, OR to get

a fish and tape it to across his too-thin lips (*inside joke).

he thinks i'm silly, crying at no particular knowledge of reason.

he thinks people always cry for a reason. i think SOME people do it randomly, like MOI.

besides, I haven't cried in a long time, and 4 months IS a damn long time to not cry,

considering my (*desperate) schoolwife-absenthusband status.

i kinda feel better after a good cry.

maybe i should start working on the darned 1500word ITD writeup thats due in

5 (*freaking out, me!) days.

Yes yes, that would make me feel EVEN better!!!

LOL.

"The Red Thread" - Dawn Farnham

2009-02-12T17:56:00.002+02:00

'Last night, about the moon I dreamt

And tumbling nuts of coco palm

Last night with you in dreams I spent

And pilowed lay upon your arm'

'Twere better not in dreams to trust

For where are dreams when comes the morn?'

I am sure this author went through great lengths in delving deeper into our

historical past, to be able to come up with this book.

I for one, do not normally read locally-inspired writes, but the moment I read the

first few pages of this book, I was H.O.O.K.E.D.

And I think CH 5 is doing a drama series based on this book, too.... I can't wait!

The Week of February 9th.

2009-02-09T18:26:00.000+02:00

Sagittarius
11/22 – 12/21

You can't help but speak out as the week begins, even if your opinion isn't the most popular -- yet. Keep talking and you should convince folks. Slow down on Tuesday and Wednesday, as rushing only sets you back farther. If other folks pass you by, you know you'll do the same to them later on. The legal system is important later in the week, but maybe in a rather unexpected or beneficial way. Every now and then, the system works! Pay attention to your dreams and daydreams this weekend, as they are much clearer than usual.

28th, on 8th Feb 2009.

2009-02-09T18:21:00.003+02:00

There is a certain feel to wishing your parents Happy 28th, knowing you were conceived,

and born in the very same year they tied the knot.

(oh, spare me the parents-must-have-been-too-eager jokes, i've heard those a million times!)

Por(e)ing it over

2009-02-05T19:21:00.004+02:00

Oh, the vain thing he does to annoy me during our Skype sessions.

Grrr.

My heart is drenched in wine - You'll be on my mind, Forever.

2009-02-05T16:00:00.004+02:00

Yesterday I saw the sun shinin'

And the leaves were fallin' down softly

My cold hands needed a warm, warm touch

And I was thinkin' about you

Here I am lookin' for signs of leaving,

You hold my hand, but do you really need me?

I guess it's time for me to let you go

And I've been thinkin' about you.

I've been thinkin' about you.

When you sail across the ocean waters,

And you reach the other side safely,

Could you smile a little smile for me?

'cause I'll be thinkin' about you.

bits and pieces

2009-02-05T15:21:00.002+02:00

i hate the way we feel inclined to stay on just a lil bit longer - always wayyyyy past our clocking out time, knowing that the other teachers who take over when we go on half-day leave, is not going to give the same detailed attention to them, cos she does not know them as well as we, the class teachers, truly do.
and i mean truly, for i can now pinpoint who just pooped with just a smell. poops now have their own identities!

the government should really look into giving O/T pay, considering the fact that we CONSTANTLY have that shortage of teaching staff, and we end up always staying.
for them kids, always for them kids.

i now know why they look out for certain special 'compassionate' quality when interviewing pre-school candidates.
it is this EXACT quality in us that's always being made use of in this field.
grrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

felicitations...

2009-02-04T18:20:00.002+02:00

to Mr and Mrs Nicholas Yeap, with enough smiles in a night to light up the world over.

and, Nic - - - - - - FINALLY!!!!!!!

:))

The Week of February 2nd

2009-02-02T15:55:00.000+02:00

Sagittarius
11/22 – 12/21
Whether you're at work or dealing with chores at home, the details really matter early this week! Make sure you focus on one small thing at a time if you want to get anything done. Life gets pretty interesting on Tuesday and Wednesday, though you may not be doing what you had hoped to be doing. Let someone else take the lead. Afterward, you may have more questions than answers, but you don't mind asking again and again until you find satisfaction. The weekend is great, and your good mood can't be dampened!