i haven't been a happy person lately.
i snap at people - Mom especially.
i get angry over small lil things.
i get annoyed when people talk more than they should - i cut them straight to their point, which makes
me seem just short of being rude.
i'm not the nice smiley person people always see me as in the mornings, i prefer to be quiet and i
don't even sing out 'good mornings' to anyone anymore.
i am even meaner to the people i am close to - i feel like i'm pushing them away sometimes nowadays,
which is just very very mean and selfish of me.
i also prefer working in peace and quiet - when i always used to welcome any visitors who come by
to chat. now, i just utter some few words in response and hope that they see how busy i am and
make their way off - unless of course, they had anything work-related to speak about. its more time and
work-efficient, you see? so its good in a sense?
i keep to myself at work - i'm not that happy bopping smiling skipping loud chatty laughing
dancing girl i usually am.
and I am sarcastic to Raze and intolerant of his antics and whims. more than normally.
why - i don't know.
maybe its an angry 'phase'.
people get that sometimes, don't they? i don't usually have them, maybe its just my time now?
but i miss being me.
i do.
and i know they miss me being me too.
sorry i've been such a grumpy cow with you lot.
you, you, you and you.
you know who you are, you guys complain about me grumping all the time!!!