Tuesday, June 05, 2007
yes, still on that dream - i've been thinking of it the whole day, i haven't been able to shake it off my
thoughts, really.
when i do think about it, its very typically me.
i leave all important decisions until the very last minute, i procrastinate on such all the time.
i've done it since i was legal to make important decisions, really.
and when i do, and that decision i finally make is unfavourable - i then get stuck with having to handle
the after-effects of my last minute decision, which, being last-minute would most possibly land me in
mostly un-nice situations and then having to explain my damned decision to all, which would be a
daunting task.
here, as usual, my final decision was last-minute - even then, it took my Dad to see it, and probably
get that out of me.
if he hadn't come up to me, i would probably have married the poor guy and we wouldn't have been
happy together!!!
it also touches on the side of me that prefers to just go ahead with some things which i don't really agree
with, as i do not wish to land myself in a difficult situation.
i'd rather agree than dis-agree, so to say. i'm not confrontational. i hate being in any. i'd rather not be in any.
it would do me just fine if people make decisions for me as long as the majority is happy with it, even
if it ain't necessarily me.
in this dream - why the HELL, if i knew he wasn't the guy for me - had i not said it earlier, before the DAY itself?????
why, did i just not want to make it a big deal with me parents?
i don't know.
those are just 2 that i've managed to think off, there are also a couple others that i'd rather keep to myself
to think of further.
maybe i'm reading into it too much, like Mom said (when i woke up all upset and she was the first
person i called) - it might be just a dream afterall.
but she did also use to say all dreams meant something when i was younger and used to have dreams
more frequently than i do now.
apart from all that though, i always thought i knew me Dad knows me best - even better than Mom.
he's always been the quiet one at home, preferring to let Mom run the show with us kids, but he's also had been
the one who figures most of me out at times when no one saw through.
this dream just made me think of him more than the person he is, and has been thus far.
more than just Dad.
coincidence, or does this just tie in with Father's Day round the corner??????
:)
funny yes - how some thoughts make you realise things you never had before?