Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Coming back to Singapore was a sacrifice I actually thought of, contemplated (which took me almost a year of contemplating, ok?) and then decided upon.
I've been home for the past 4 months now - and since I've never been home for more than a month before having to fly back to work the past 3-4 years, this is a BIG deal for me.
You can say I'm still very much trying my best to come to terms with it.
And on some ultra-bad days, I feel like hopping on the next plane to France, just to regain some past familiarity.
I am missing out on the travelling, the four seasons (not that winter went all that well with me and 5 layers of clothings, but hey..), the easy money (nothing illegal of course, just the fact that I don't have to work so physically hard to earn good money then, as compared to being shortchanged with more working hours at a much much lower pay now), the carefree lifestyle, the summer beach-mad friends, the noisy music sessions at the aftdeck courtesy of our in-house deck musicians, the weekly over-indulgences in food, the periodic Egyptian beach resort escapades, the much needed almost-daily (lol) shopping sprees at Galleries Lafayette. I am also missing out on getting to see D whenever I want/need to.
My current colleagues ALL thought I was out of my mind when they found out about my 'high-flying' (in their own words) previous job, and the main reason/s why I left. My parents, happy as they were when I told them prior to coming home, also questioned my decision, knowing this carefree, need-to-escape daughter better than anyone else in this world - why is she deciding to come back..???Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm *raises those suspicious eyebrows*Raze of course, lamented his future financial woes. I had warned him in advance that I would reduce his 'allowance' by at least half when I settled back home, you see.
SO, at some point, I hope this HUGE sacrifice will work my way and make me see that it was worth it.Cos at this point, all I am doing is struggling. With mostly everything else.